As we go through changes and adjust to life, sometimes we may ponder why me?? Waking up this morning with this thought, the words why not me came to mind. I know, very deep huh?
As a lot of you, who truly know me, also know I can live in a little bit of a fairytale sometimes. I'm always trying to remain positive. Which is a good thing, but there is also reality as well.
Why not me, going through this Journey of the little - C ? Yes, yesterdays challenges of life are gone, but today is here and today is a gift. All of these emotions that come with cancer are real and scary. So many unanswered questions and whys. Here is the thing, I want to rely on my faith in God, that everyday he is carrying me through each of these challenges that may arise. He has given me the gift of life, to live and not take for granted so many things I know I have in the past. I am willing to embrace this journey that I am on right now, and share in hopes that it may help others not to give up, but to look up and know you are not alone in this battle!
One of my first challenges that I encountered, when I heard I had cancer, was that I was going to LOSE my hair. My first thought was WHAT!! I wasn't focused on anything else. Like, being sick, how many treatments, what this is doing to my body. All I could focus on was my HAIR. Now when I look back, I realize I was making a MOUNTAIN out of a MOLEHILL. You learn very quickly, after being diagnosed with cancer, what are the most important things in life. Your hair isn't one of them, it will grow back. I remember my Oncologist saying to me, it will come back, and it may come back curly. To me, that is AMAZING I love curly hair.
My point is, I want to embrace all THIS ENTIRE journey, and not take ANYTHING for granted. I'm learning on the fly, to let go of those so call MOLEHILLS, and not turn them in to MOUNTAINS.
This why, I'm documenting everything.
Here is a small clipping of the past. A lock of hair, that was a MOUNTAIN that,
I've overcome.
I hope you guys have a rocking day and I will be back with more
later!
So very proud of you! I am thankful I have been able to be reached out to and knowing the that fear of your hair was real. You did what Jen needed to do. You said “I got this!” Please continue to tell yourself you love you for who you are not what that damn C word can make you feel at times! You got this! I am cheering you on and remember that no matter what you will ALWAYS BE JEN TO ME! 😘
ReplyDeleteI love you Jen Marshbank!
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