August 28th, 2019
God morning! ( I meant to type GOOD) but I am leaving this here because it is a God morning, just like each day is. So thankful for this morning. Yes, guess what I was up early again! That is ok, gives me a chance to reflect, journal, create, maybe have coffee (NOPE lost taste for this..LOL) and blog.
Yesterday, I left off with how the "Little c" began. After waking up from the hysterectomy surgery, all I could really focus on was healing from my surgery and knowing that I needed to take one step at a 
time. I didn't really allow myself to focus on my diagnosis in hand.
time. I didn't really allow myself to focus on my diagnosis in hand.
The people who truly know me and know the heart of Jen, also know I have a hard time putting myself first. (stubborn, comes natural..LOL) Once, the diagnosis truly sat in with me, I knew that I would need to make some changes, but also knew it would not be easy. that is where the one step at a time comes in.
When you hear the word CANCER, it is one of those oh crap moments and here comes that big bag of emotions. My first thought was of my Dad (who passed away of Cancer) but then all I kept hearing is my Oncologist Surgeon saying I got it all, but you will need treatment. Reflecting back to my Dad, he had a type of Cancer, that there not a cure for. So I was very thankful that the type I have, there is treatment for.
Even in my big bag of emotions and with so many questions, the one thing I hold true to my heart is the "GREATEST PHYSICIAN" my GOD has this and he is going to utilize my journey, to help others realize they are not alone in whatever battle you are facing.
Yes cancer, chemo, and radiation are scary but I know I am wrapped in LOVE. Knowing this puts comfort to my soul. Even, when I falter and want to go back to those negative places.
After learning about the chemo process (warning: never do research on your own, meaning stay off of WEB MD...scary...I have to remember there is not MD behind my name so let the trained ones handle this!) I knew it would be a process. Chemo is very entailed (I have radioactive powers😃) and make sure you bring your circle of people with you so they can ask questions, because for me all I was focusing on was the start date and feeling overwhelmed. (I even wrote questions down)
You're probably wandering why I have called this post the "The Flaming Journey Continues" Well, let me tell you. When all of your female piping has gone bye,bye guess what, that's right, here comes MENOPAUSE-AKA NO JOKE about those flaming hot flashes. Here is the thing, the medical team kept saying you can start having the RED HOT flashes after three to four weeks from surgery. (that did not register in my brain) So here we are present day!
When the hot flashes occur my first thought is to strip, because I am hot. Funny thing is I am never hot, always cold because of (lipedema, lymphedema, and chronic venous insufficiency.) Well my partner in crime, is like what you going to do when you start chemo? WAIT WHAT?? Yes, you got it with Chemo, those hot little flashes get worse. They now last 3-4 minutes (feels like eternity). Oh boy, one suggestion-prepare yourself. (not sure how to tell you to do this, because I have no clue..lol)
To answer your question, NO I did not strip during my first Chemo session. My first chemo was last Thursday. When I walked into the infusion center, that big bag of emotions was back but the Nurses and staff, do a phenomenal job to answer all questions and put your mind at ease.
Well, here comes another one of those flaming hot flashes. (I am a hot mess) and look forward to posting again soon.
Have a beautiful day!
My prayers are with you Jen!
ReplyDeleteYou got this and I am always here for you! I want to be your shoulder, your friend to just listen and be there to help you out when and however I can! Keep posting as you journey, even those of us who are not in your exact shoes will have a better outlook on life. Like you, I have always been the one to help and not stop to smell the roses. I am learning every day though and it’s true, we must take time for ourselves. We got you! 😘🙏
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